One...Two...Three

One... Two... Three...

First, one.
Then, another.
And after all that,
Another one still.
It comes.
It comes,
Like hurricane winds;
The one that you never thought would come.
Prepared?
You never thought you'd have to.
But of course, it was innevitable.
Shot from behind.
One...
Two...
Three...
Waiting and cringing,
All for the next big blow.
Now, you think your ready.
True?
...Here it comes...

Why Etiquette Classes Should Be Mandatory for Boys...

The more I hear about the way guys tend to treat girls, the more angry I get. The way they try and take advantage of us. They see us as nothing more than a piece of meat that the can do with as they please. Much like their own personal blow-up doll.

For example, a friend of mine was telling me about an experience she had with a guy. They were just good friends and all the sudden one night he decided that he wanted a piece of her and was such a horn dog that he started to pressure her into the kind of ,"If I do this for you, will you do this for me" sort of thing. Luckily, she has amazing strength and told him off.

But, the problem is that girls tend to just let guys do this to the poit where they think it's okay and normal. Like, my mom's friend and my aunt and uncle won't believe that my brother and sister in law were virgins when they got married. It's horrible that that has become the excepted standard. If you've dated someone for more than a month or two, you automatically have to have had sex. And, alot of times people are just like," Yeah, there is no way those Mormon boys are as clean as you say. There's no way that they don't look at porn and things of that nature." It's just so sad.

But, you know, Mormon boys aren't totally the exceptions, because the guy in the story mentioned, is Mormon. It's really disgusting. Guys just aren't taught to treat women with respect. Where it once was taboo to be young and not a virgin, or even not be virgin before you were married, it now has become acceptable to the general public. But, it really shouldn't be. It has totally alienated alot of girls, like me, to where you can't even have a friendly relationship with a guy, because eventually he will turn into a total jerk and try and get with you, even if he doesn't see you as anything more than a friend.

I mean, it hasn't neccisarily happened to me, I've seen it happen to so many of my firends and peers. Guys just throw them around like trash and the girls just accept the fact that they're going to be that way. Then, it eventually gets to the point where if a girl gets into a relationship and the guy hasn't kissed her in the first week, she (and the others around) will think there's somthing wrong with the guy.

We, both men and women, shouldn't let this be the norm anymore. We need to stand up and be proud of who we are and not be afriad to stand up for ourselfs. And guys need to stand up and be proud of being gentlemen.

We should't just sit back and watch anymore. We need to take a stand and support eachother. And if someone has gone through this, don't condem them for being a slut or whatnot. Be an example to them and let them know that it's okay to be different and support them through the mistakes they make, especially if they're trying to get back on the right path.

Let's do this.

Something In the Way She Moves

Uh, I love that song. "Something" by the Beatles. I just got home from watching "Across the Universe". It was so amazing. It was beautiful, just beautiful. Afterward I was talking to my mom about some of the things in the movie and asked about them and if she ever experienced any of those things. It was really touching, the way she related things.

You see, the movie made me really realize how the Vietnam War was really THE turning point in our society. That was when we made the change from a nation of happy, suburban, working people, into a nation of thinkers with true feelings and opinions that we were no longer afriad to speak up about.

My mom related it to the war in Iraq. Nobody wanted it to happen or agreed with it, because no one even knew why it was happening. It was the point where people realized that the government wasn't perfect and they noticed the corruption there in.

She told me a story about her high school boyfriend after she left for college. My mom broke up with him because he stood her up, so he decided to "punish" her by enlisting in the national guard to "go get killed in the war." She said that that was her first really lesson on not letting others blame her for their own stupid decisions. Meanwhile, the guy didn't even get hurt.

She was talking about how, during the last election, people where making in a big deal about Kerry trying to skip out on the draft. But she sympathized saying,"Anyone in their right mind was trying to escape the draft. No one wanted to go fight for a cause no one believed in or even knew of."

It's really amazing to hear those stories about times past. It really helps me understand the problems of the present.

Anyway, if you haven't seen "Across the Universe", you need to. Open your mind. "Love is all you need"

Across the Land and Over the Trees

I don't know why
So hard i try
To make sure that you see me
Across the land
Over the trees
I don't know why, you see.
I don't know why
I let this go on
I don't know why i wait
Across the land
Over the trees
I don't know why, you see.
Hear it
Hear it
Hear it beat
Like the bass in a big swing band
Watch it
Watch it
Watch it leap
Like a dancer through a bright blue sky
I don't know why
I am this way
It seems i will always be
Across the land
Over the trees
I don't know why, you see

My White Whale

It wasn’t a week ago

that I was so high

I thought was possible

to soar through the sky

but now things have changed

through my inability

to hold something together

and create my reality

i tried to hard

I pushed it away

Out through the window

there went my perfect day

I thought it was right

being that it was so random

I had let go of things, finally

Then I stumbled upon your kingdom

I conquered my white whale

Stabbed it through the heart

I thought I had fixed things

Too bad i went back to the start.

So now I’m a mess

wishing that had never been

wishing I had stayed home

I should never try to win

for it will only bring me heatbrake

Then sorrow

Then sin

for it will make me curse God

though I never truely mean it

I should have stayed home

Stayed where my puzzle piece fit

What do Starbucks, Shopping, cops, corn nuggets, and Obama have in common?

So, today started out fine. After school I went to my best friend's house, whom I hadn't seen in quite a while due to her demanding wok schedule (darn Starbucks!). We got thirsty and bored so we went to the mall. She got us some blended creme fraps and then we went searching for a birthday present for another of my best friends. We had so much fun being the silly girls that we are, but then it got dark out.
We made one last stop at Target for me to buy the soundtrack to "Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist". After that we decided to go the back way to her house so that I didn't have to drive on 518 during rush hour. Well, the bright people that we are, we didn't realize that we were driving through jerk cop territory. I was looking around for a speed limit sign and watching my speedometer when my friend noticed lights flashing behind me. It was the cops.
I totally freaked out and started to try and find a place to pull over and in the process I ran a stop sign.
I pulled over into a gas station parking lot and the pig came to take my license and registration (thank goodness I had them) and when back to his car when I realized what was happening. Then I freaked out even more. I began to sob harder than I have ever before. I just kept thinking,"This is the last thing my parents need right now. We can't afford this. Oh, my gosh, they're going to think I'm turning into my brother! What am I going to do?" Then I began to pray as Sarah held my hand and calmed me.
The jerk told me I was going 45 in a 30 mph zone, when I know for a fact that I wasn't and then he was all,"So what's going on with your license?"
"Uhm, I don't know? It's my liscense? That's all."
Apparently it had expired, even though I just got it in June. What? Yeah. That's what I said.
So basically after the jerk left, I called my mom sobbing. She thought I had gotten in a wreck and started freaking out. But quickly realized what had happened and tried to console me.
It was so scary. I thought I was going to explode all over my car. And on top of everything, I was on empty. It was horrible.
So, we went back to Sarah's house and she cooked for me and I ate until I was about to burst. She and her sister made me laugh and we went on and watched "27 Dresses".
After that we turned to election coverage. It was crazy. When I went into the bathroom Obama had 207 electoral votes and when I came out, he had won the election with 283 electoral votes. It was crazy I say!
So then I went home to face the wrath of Dad, though he wasn't bad at all. It was such a relief.
I don't think I'm going to sleep much tonight.