Too Much

I've used up all my tears
My eyes are dry
Though I can feel them still
Trickling down my cheeks.

I am completely numb
Though I'm in agonizing pain
My stomach retches
My skin crawls.

I can't feel anything for you
Yet I feel everything
You're in my every though
I want to taste your every breath

I hate myself
I know I am gorgeous
I know I am kind
I just make dumb choices.

My feelings are too strong.
I'm an old soul
Too old for this earth
Let me skip ahead.

Faith is too hard for me now.